Jum

This is why, this is why I usually don't love people, this is why I don't trust them, this is why I never spect anything from them, because when my hopes are up, they always disappoint me. Because when I decide I'm not going to be afraid, I start having all this spectations about people, I start believing they are there for me, and they are not, because let's face it, we are there only for us... even when we try not to. So I'm going back to my shitty mood, when I don't trust or talk to anyone, when I decide not to make contact with people, that way, I won't be dissapointed, I'm sorry for asking too much and then put it out like it is your fault, is not... is just that sometimes, is really difficult for me for you to act like I don't worth anything... and sometimes all your shitty words don't even begin to cover how you really feel about me. I don't know, I guess I have to take all these things, just because I care about you, but I don't know, sometimes, it doesn't feel right.